I have been looking around at people's blog's and all the amazing things they do for Samhain, and I feel poor. Painfully, horribly, hopelessly, limitingly poor. For some 30 years I have been trying to invent things one can do as much DIY as possible, and there IS a lot one can do... but...
I cannot have a house and garden.
I cannot have antique furniture, with a beautiful sheen that only comes from decades of polishing.
I cannot have give-aways, because I cannot afford the postal fees.
I cannot do a lot of DIY either, because I cannot afford buying what is needed... like such simple things like hot glue gun, pretty ribbons, paint.
On top of this... I have fibromyalgia, which sometimes robs me even the possibility of doing things with the things I CAN afford, like anything found outside, and simple, white paper and watercolors.
Yesterday I was really, really happy and full of ideas of what I could do and how I could offer you a really good Samhain party, and today...
My hands hurt.
It's my husband's birthday, and my hands hurt.
He asked only for one thing for his birthday, and I cannot give that to him, because my hands hurt.
I know I shouldn't be complaining and sharing my woes with you, this is supposed to be a party, and even if I MAY cry on MY party, it's not polite and nice. If you bother enough to come, I should bother enough to even TRY being a good hostess. *sigh*